Day 139

Im thinking about surprising him in the air port when he comes.

Day 138

he makes me the happiest girl in the world. Seriously...

Day 137

he asks around to see how a med student can  study there. Cute right?

Day 136

aaand everything’s back to normal :))))

Day 135

he does pay attention to me more. Although he was on his way today and he hasnt arrived home yet, he tried talking to me a lot.

I can not possibly stay mad or sad at him but i would like to see how much effort he is willing to put in.

Day 134

24 hours passed without a single msg from him. I didnt bother to msg him either. I knew he wont even see them. After about 27 hours he msg ed me that he is on his way to an other city and that he will make up for the time he was not paying attention to me.

I know i should have been happy, in love and everything...but i felt nothing. I was crying, a little, when he msged and his words didnt make me stop.

I feel alone. I miss him. I dont know if we can be the same, if I can be the same. As if i forgot how i used to love him since he was gone for so long. I feel empty.

I think he wont know it. He wont suspect a thing. And if he does, he just ignores it. I mean, wouldnt he miss me? Even a little? Wouldnt he wonder how am i doin?

Im sad..and alone...

Day 133

” how can i ever forget you? Im just busy having fun!” He said.

Im happy for him. At least there is no girl involved... hopefully...

Day 132

what if he gets used to me not being around? What if he forgets? Ehat if he loose his feelings? What if...

I soooo fckng miss him :((((

I missed 131. My arm hurt and it was unbearable. I slept early.

Day 130

well, we talked a bit longer today!!!

I asked him to be honest with me and if anything had happened and he said no. Definitely not and dont worry.

I believed. Im calm again :)

Day 129

he has not seen my msges. I mean sure.. we talked for like 4 minutes on the phone and thats it. All i got for today was a 4 minute call and half of it was him talking to his friend. So yeah...miss me much?

He didnt talk about her. He didnt even mentioned her. When i asker about her he said she has a presentation next week and is busy. 

I dont know what to think. Is he telling me the truth? Or is he just lying to make me feel better? Did he sleep with her? Does she really study while on vecation?

5 more days and this will all go back to normal i hope.

But...

Just a 4 minute call?

I really miss him! Doesnt he miss me?

:( he talks sweet...his acts are not that sweet.