Day 27

i know he loves me. He has proved it to me. But some of his actions makes me sad. Like when i comment on his picture, i want a reply. I want his friends to know that i am his girl, like her ex used to be known by everyone.

I thought i have made it clear that i really care about this. I thought there is no need for me to tell him about it. But after a romantic comment, i dont expect “youre saying that cause youre nice”. And when i tell him about this whole thing again, I definitely dont expect no answer for another comment. After three days i told him. And he said i dont know what to reply, Im thinking about it. And i said nah its not important let it go. And he said it is important.

Damn right it is important but when i ask you to do it, it has no value. When you dont know what to say its worthless. He went shopping. He said he will think about it and will reply. Though im not gonna be as much as happy as i should have, i really doubt that he would do it.

I am almost sure that he will forget about it.

I have every right to be sad. Right?

Day 26

i feel lonely again. He was really upset this morning. He said he is homesick. He slept right after it. I was really worried about him. I waited for him to wake up so i can check up on him. He went to his class but didnt msg me after it, and i specifically told him to msg me when youre free. Maybe he hasnt been free yet? Idk.

I feel like, i dont know...maybe its just hormones talking. Maybe im being unfair. Maybe  i shouldnt expect him to act like me. Maybe boys are all like this. I have no idea to be honest. I have never been in a relationship before. He didnt answer my email.

You know what? This IS hormones talking. He loves me. Im being paranoid again.

Day 25

he has been missing me a lot lately. He keeps sending me pictures and saying that he wished i was there. When ho goes out, when he wants to go shopping, even when he wants to go to work.

Its not even a month. He is lonely and i can feel it. Maybe what my sister said is true afterall. Maybe i will be with him sooner than four years. Lets see what will happen.

Day 24

my exam was good. He sent me positive vibes. Thats what we do. Its our thing.

Day 23

I noticed he has not answered her comments since he figured i feel jealous. I love him, and he loves me and he shows it and i love it about him.

Day 22

soooo he msged me and I answered. So much for the silent treatment haha. We were talking and i said good morning and he said good night. It was kind of depressing but it made me want to try more to be with him. I will do everything i can. I will move mountains for him.

Day 21

Well he hasn’t msged me since morning. Im giving him silence treatment for now as a punishment lol. I always say goodnight to him but i wont send him a msg until he does. This is hard af but he needs it sometimes.

Day 20

his friends gf comments on his pictures and it really makes me angry and he likes my jealousy.

I gotta do something about her.

Day 19

my best friend is acting like a bitch. Her actions made me sad today, but then i remembered that i dont need them. I have HIM. And he and my family are all i need.

Day 18

he video called at 0600. He showed me a lake. It was absolutely perfect. And there were big rocks, which you can sit on, near the lake. And there was a bridge on it. It was amazing.

He told me i miss you, i wish you were here. We would sit on this rock and watch the scenery. I agreed.

He makes me feel so good.