Day 60

it happened. After a week telling me he feels alone he finally spit it out. I cried. I cried so much. He said he loves me and he has a dilemma. Did not make me feel better.

I wrote him an email and he answered call me when you wake up. I wonder what he has to say. What a week...

Day 58

he cried and i cried. He is homesick. He misses me and there is nothing i can do about it. This makes me so angry and  sad...

She commented again, “two glasses of wine, some chocolate, a blanket and a piece of you that was never mine”. I told him im sad, he said what can i do? She is the least of my worries right now. Please dont think about her.

I know he doesn’t care about her but she is flirting! Why cant he see that?

I wonder if he is going to remember my birthday...

Day 57

he was really sad today. Kept saying he wants me there with him. I dont wanna see him sad :( 

I hope these days pass soon and we can be together again.

Day 56

the thing about long distance relationship is that you know you love him, you know he loves you... but you just cant shake the feeling! Is he meeting a girl now? Might he like someone? What if he leaves me for a blonde?

There’s really nothing you can do about it. You just have to trust him and his feeling.

Day 55

he sent me a picture of a piece of paper on which he had written our song with a tiny little drawing of a cat and a chick. :)

We also video called today, i can never get enough of looking at him. We kept looking at each other without saying a word, he told me i love you so much, and i felt it, i knew it. I am the luckiest girl in the whole wide world.

Day 54

All i got today was just a 2 minute chat. He was in class and he told me his mother cried and he is sad and i was comforting him and he said gotta go and that’s it.

I cant get used to this, i dont want to. I miss him. To be honest, I’m scared of msging him. I dont want to bother him. This is probably hormone talking though.

Im gonna msg him now.

...

I did. I wanted to tell him i miss him, that i need him and i want to talk a bit. But i dont want him to be sad. I dont want him to feel bad. He is offline anyway. I can hold my tongue but not my tears. I wish at least he was online...

Day 53

i hate it when everyone else keeps saying its not going to happen, he is going to leave you...

But they are not in our relationship! He will never leave me, neither will i! We love each other and that is what matters. 

Day 52

Today was one of those days that i was just not okay. I was too emotional and our friend told me he might be with you because he cant be with anyone else.

But im going to ignore them all. We love each other.

Day 51

I had to wake him up today. It was so hard. He was so cute, kept asking for five more minutes and i knew he might be late but i just couldn’t say no to those sleepy red eyes. But eventually he woke up :)) and thanked me for caring and i told him that he must not thank me. I love him and i do anything for him. Absolutely anything.

Day 50

i thought about him a lot. I imagined his hands again, his warm hugs, his soft kisses. The way he smiled, the way he closed his eyes when i put my hands on his cheek. Im not going to lose him, ever. He is my perfect match.