Day 6

Last night was my sisters wedding. We didnt talk much. I was busy, he was too. He was looking for a place to stay in September. He was frustrated, but he sent me a picture of the doll i gave him and said: my reason to be happy.

I gave him that doll because it reminds him of me.

I did something. I was talking with a friend and maybe I over did it. Until i msged him that I’m worried, where are you? And he only answered don’t.

I thought about every possible scenario, including him being friend with that friend. I thought what if he is angry at me? What the hell am I supposed t do if he breaks up with me? That’s when I realized I can’t do this. So i msged the friend and told him i have a boy friend and i love him very much.

I feel better. He is asleep now. I do love him. Very much.

I was telling him that when i was watching my sisters wedding clip, i felt like i want one too. To my surprise, he answered: “come here and we do what ever you want.” He clearly meant marriage. This means a lot to me. He has changed. I’m happy.