Day 54

All i got today was just a 2 minute chat. He was in class and he told me his mother cried and he is sad and i was comforting him and he said gotta go and that’s it.

I cant get used to this, i dont want to. I miss him. To be honest, I’m scared of msging him. I dont want to bother him. This is probably hormone talking though.

Im gonna msg him now.

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I did. I wanted to tell him i miss him, that i need him and i want to talk a bit. But i dont want him to be sad. I dont want him to feel bad. He is offline anyway. I can hold my tongue but not my tears. I wish at least he was online...