Day 68

today was fun.  He told me i really want you which made me feel good. We video called, looked at each other and slept afterwards.

Day 67

i feel better, today was better. We talked. I made him sleep :)) its gonna be ok.

Day 66

he called, he was happy. He told me he loves me and everything and it made me think maybe this is all in my head! Maybe nothings wrong...

Day 65

ive entered my dull phase. 

Im trying to push it back.

He bought vampire custom for halloween. Looks cute on him.

Day 64

he sent a story with this caption” everyone has someone whom always makes them smile. Today is my someone’s birthday.”

So obviously  i was really happy. He had finally started telling everyone that i am his gf and he also told me he hid his mom and family. And then it hit me hard. He hid everyone...almost. So i told him are you ashamed of our relationship? 

He said its becaude he doesn’t want his parents to ask questions and he knows they are against this relationship. Reasonable but...

Day 63

what did I tell you? Yup! He forgot. It was around 11pm that i sent my pictures to him and he said aww, and i said dont aww me! Say happy birthday!! And he said oh shit i forgot. And then he called.

This wasnt a surprise. I knew this would happen but i was hoping for something else. Like a romantic story, a call at midnight..idk...

Day 62

Well its already past midnight and he didnt say anything. 

I dont know, shall i wait unti tomorrow and tell him or wait till night? Hmm...

Day 61

we talked. He said that he is sorry and he feels so much better and he is being kind of super romantic after it. I dont know wether i shold be worried or not.

Day 60

it happened. After a week telling me he feels alone he finally spit it out. I cried. I cried so much. He said he loves me and he has a dilemma. Did not make me feel better.

I wrote him an email and he answered call me when you wake up. I wonder what he has to say. What a week...

Day 58

he cried and i cried. He is homesick. He misses me and there is nothing i can do about it. This makes me so angry and  sad...

She commented again, “two glasses of wine, some chocolate, a blanket and a piece of you that was never mine”. I told him im sad, he said what can i do? She is the least of my worries right now. Please dont think about her.

I know he doesn’t care about her but she is flirting! Why cant he see that?

I wonder if he is going to remember my birthday...