when i think about him, i smile automatically. He rocks my world :)
he does pay attention to me more. Although he was on his way today and he hasnt arrived home yet, he tried talking to me a lot.
I can not possibly stay mad or sad at him but i would like to see how much effort he is willing to put in.
24 hours passed without a single msg from him. I didnt bother to msg him either. I knew he wont even see them. After about 27 hours he msg ed me that he is on his way to an other city and that he will make up for the time he was not paying attention to me.
I know i should have been happy, in love and everything...but i felt nothing. I was crying, a little, when he msged and his words didnt make me stop.
I feel alone. I miss him. I dont know if we can be the same, if I can be the same. As if i forgot how i used to love him since he was gone for so long. I feel empty.
I think he wont know it. He wont suspect a thing. And if he does, he just ignores it. I mean, wouldnt he miss me? Even a little? Wouldnt he wonder how am i doin?
Im sad..and alone...
” how can i ever forget you? Im just busy having fun!” He said.
Im happy for him. At least there is no girl involved... hopefully...
what if he gets used to me not being around? What if he forgets? Ehat if he loose his feelings? What if...
I soooo fckng miss him :((((
I missed 131. My arm hurt and it was unbearable. I slept early.
well, we talked a bit longer today!!!
I asked him to be honest with me and if anything had happened and he said no. Definitely not and dont worry.
I believed. Im calm again :)