Day 129

he has not seen my msges. I mean sure.. we talked for like 4 minutes on the phone and thats it. All i got for today was a 4 minute call and half of it was him talking to his friend. So yeah...miss me much?

He didnt talk about her. He didnt even mentioned her. When i asker about her he said she has a presentation next week and is busy. 

I dont know what to think. Is he telling me the truth? Or is he just lying to make me feel better? Did he sleep with her? Does she really study while on vecation?

5 more days and this will all go back to normal i hope.

But...

Just a 4 minute call?

I really miss him! Doesnt he miss me?

:( he talks sweet...his acts are not that sweet.

Day 128

he is with her now. We barely talked today. I asked a question about her and he said idc. It made me happy. But then he said they might go swimming together and i know he will look at  her booty...

“Its just a few more days” i keep telling myself:(

Day 127

my bff says im overthinking. I know i do that a lot. But am I?

He is gonna meet her in about  2 hours. And they are gonna literally live together for about a week. There’s nothing i can do now. Im breaking but im not showing.

I just hope he makes the right choices...thats all.

He posted a part of his book today that was m about honesty and lying. About how lying is sometimes good and you can bend the truth without lying. Im not stupid. He is going to “bend the truth” with me. I know something is going to happen, i have a feeling...and im pretty sure he is not gonna talk about it. :(

Day 126

this is the hardest thing ever. I know he is on his way to another city. I know he is gonna meet up with her. I know they are going to spend days living together...and i can not do a single fxk about it.

Day 125

i love it when we video call. We stare at each other, we smile, and im so in love with him...

Day 124

he said he wont sleep with anyone, he means it and he loves me too much. I told him you dont mean that and he said you don’t believe me? And i told him you said you must do it...!

I feel bad, i believe him. I always believe him. He is my man. I apologized. And you know? I feel like we love each other even more now.

Day 123

i went out with my male friends and he got jealous. I saw no reason for it. I love his jealousy but he is going to live/sleep with her for a week!!!

And he knows very well that i am deeply in love with him...

Day 122

i hate her and i have every rights. I feel like she is stealing my man! 

He changed his back ground to my pic. Its a lil embarrassing but also very romantic.

Day 121

we havent talked much. We’re both busy going to parties and everything. I kinda miss him :(